CoNfUsÃo!!!!!!!

Os que deram certo e sao eternos...

ALIENADA EU???
Trazan & Jane/ Louis Lane & Clak Kent, John & Yoko. Popeye& Olivia, Barbie& Ken,
Seria tao bom se na vida real fosse tao facil.

O aniverssario...
A babaca , idiota, iludida... por que desperdiçar o meu tempo de intervalo onde sempre tomo um mate diet delicioso para me esconder num canto ligar a porra do celular desejanto FELIZ ANIVERSSARIO E escurtar uma voz daquelas que dizem...desliga logo porra!!! porque voce ligou em?? com um simples e tao frio quanto o polo norte...THANK YOU. E pensar que nos ultimos 2 snos isso fora um ritual feliz , este ano me deu arrepios e meu mais novo cachorro Ricky com seus olhinhos tristes e apaticos chega perto de mim coloca a cabecinha no meu pe como se dissesse... deixa pra la mamae!! Isso tudo ha de passar eu estou aqui.

O garotinho e o jogo de hoje...
Onde voce passava em bares que geralmente aqui no Rio e principlamente no meu bairro que e todo eu diria ``colonizado` por portugueses estava la a TV ligadinho na partida de futebol da Euro 2004. Um garotinho com uniforme de escola municipal -que ironicamente e laranja e branco- diz pra sua mae- MAMAE TO TORCENDO PRA HOLANDA PORQUE A CAMISA DELES SE PARECE COM MEU UNIFORME ESCOLAR. E quando cheguei ao centro na lanchonete que sempre compro meu lanche e ai quem ganhou?? O atendente que sempre me atende... PORTUGAL 2 x HOLANDA1. Cheguei a vibrar por dentro com uma pontinha de felicidade,como se eu dissesse.. ao menos esse presente de aniverssario voce nao ganhou!!
Mas isso e ridiculo,redundante e eu sei porque.

ENGLISH VERSION...
The ones whose romance worked right....
SILLY ME???
Trazan & Jane/ Louis Lane & Clak Kent, John & Yoko. Popeye& Olivia, Barbie& Ken,
It would be so good if the real life could be that easy.

The birthday...
The asshole, idiot... ME.... Why waste my break time (when I usually drink my delicios diet tea) hiding myself on a corner and call from my damm cell phone wishing HAPPY BIRTHDAY and on the other side of the phone hear a voice feelling like saying- `hang up damm it can't you see I don't wanna talk to you,why did you call then??`-
with a simple and as cold as the Alaska THANK YOU. And I just wondered that in the last 2 years the used to be a happy and enjoyable ritual, this year made me trumble inside and my new dog, Rick on his sad eyes, get closer me pout his head on my feetas if he is saying.... nenevermind mum!! this all will be over one day.

The little boy and the today's soccer  game...
wherever you were in Rio specially bars that are most of times of portuguese people and also on my neighborhood that I could say was all builded up by portuguese people there it was a Tv showing the soccer partyog Euro 2004. A little boy on a school uniform- that ironically it is orange and white- say to his mother- mom, I am rooting for Neetherlands because their shirts looks like my school uniforms!!! And when I got in downtown on the snack bar I usually go I asked the guys- who won the match??
The guy who always talk to me said... PORTUGAL2 x NEETHERLANDS 1. I even got a little happy inside as if I was saying... at least this birthday present you couldn't get!! But this is bowshit anyway!!! 

EURO COPA HOJE....

Meu coraçao torcia pela Holanda, mas meu ressentimento e minha raiva torciam pela Suecia.
Meu coraçao ganhou nos penaltis da minha vida....

ENGLISH VERSION.

EURO COPA TODAY...

My heart was rooting for Netherlands, but my sorrow and anger were rooting for Sweden.
My heart won on the penalties of my life...

Das esperanças de quem se achava forte...

Ela caminha, lentamente-"anda devegar porque ja teve pressa e leva esse sorriso porque ja chorou demais"- ruas de downtown, ha quantos anos essas ruas me perseguem? Ou sera que sou eu quem as persigo?-Ela pensa- Ha quantos anos eu luto, na persistencia? Eu de tennis e calça larga... me deparo com mulheres de cabelo esticado vestidas scarpin e blazer, eu as vejo desejando tanto estar la um dia.. sabendo que eu ja poderia estar.Ela se perguntou por que nao ela? Pra que tantos livros ela carrega? Por que ela e a primeira da classe ? Pra que? Para que as outras pessoas a digam: Eu ja passei por ai antes e joguem na  cara que ja estao em um estagio da vida bem mais acima que o dela?? Pessoas que um dia se diziam tao desapegadas a bens materiais, se transformam em monstros consumistas e frios e ela com toda sua humildade, que e tao dificil persistir nela, mas ela persiste porque o maior desafio do ser humano e vencer a si mesmo e julgar a si mesmo... (Como ja diria o livro do Pequeno Principe) ela so abaixa a cabeça e espera que a vida e ela propria façam sua parte...
O vendedor de livros a trata como uma deusa, o atendente da lanchonete como uma princesa e o porteiro do predio se pudesse estenderia o tapete vermelho pra ela passar... e entao...ela percebe que nao nas suas roupas nem na sua aparencia mas,a sua simpatia,seu sorriso e o que cativa essas pessoas simples, que trabalham duro em empregos bem inferiores ao dela e ainda sim sao seres humanos e sempre estao sorrindo satisfeitos com o pouco que tem; ficam alegres ao ve-la e dizem: Que bom que vc apareceu hoje!
Ai percebo que o maior valor da vida nao vem do seu grande emprego numa multi nacional, nem do carro e da casa que voce comprará, nem das grandes viagens que realizará, nem nas palavras de quem diz aquilo que certamente nao quer dizer, mas o faz por tao puro orgulho de si mesmo , se achando tao auto suficiente que poderia conquistar o mundo. E entao me recordo sempre das palavras sabias de minha mae... NAO PERGUNTE O POR QUE MAS PARA QUE!! Eu caia em um ninho de cobras ambiciosas, mas nao me dei conta disso... Ainda sim meu coraçao nao endureceu e sou feliz em poder dizer: EU AINDA ACREDITO NO AMOR. TUDO QUE SEI E QUE NADA SEI...QUE BOM POIS MAIS E MAIS EU QUERO APRENDER...COM A VIDA. A vida tao confusao e misteriosa mas ainda sim a MAIOR UNIVERSIDADE DE TODAS EM TODO O MUNDO.

"I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I'm the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
As positive as I am sometimes

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I am the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes"

ENGLISH VERSION

FROM THE HOPES OF A GIRL WHO THOUGHT SHE WAS STRONG...

She walks, very slowly- she walk slowly because once she had been on a hurry and she carries this smile on her face because she had cried too much"- downtown streets,for how long these streets still gonna chase her? or is it her who chase them? For how many years she fights being so persistant? Her, in tennis shoes, large pants... faces women in straight beautifull hair, dressed in blazers and scarpin shoes, she sees them, wishing she could be there one day... knowing that she could have been there already. She wondered herself: why  not me? Why do I carry so many books in my arms? Why am I the best student? For what? For people come to me and say:I had been there before! and spit it out on me that they are on a more advanced level of their lives? People who said once they never cared about material things turn into cold monsters of greed. Her in all her humbleness and modesty, that is it so difficult to do, but she persisits anyway, because the biggest challange of a human being it is to challange and judge your own self (Like it is said in the book LE PETIT PRINCE) She just put her head down and wait that life and herself do what it has to be done...
The book seller treats her as a godness, the guy from the snack bar as a princess and the front desk man of the building would put a red carpet for her to pass, if he could.. and then.. she realizes that are not  her clothes or the way she looks like but  her nice way and her smile that conquer these people, who work hard on their jobs, much more inferior than hers, and still, with the little they have, they are happy when they see her and say: IT IS GOOD TO SEE YOU TODAY!
Then I realize that the worth of life don't come from your good job on a multinational company, not on the house and the car you  gonna buy, not on the big trips you gonna make not on the words of someone who says what really don't mean to say, but do it anyway for being so proud of yourself, thinking so high enough that could conquer the whole world. And then I always remember the wise words from my mother...NEVER ASK WHY THINGS HAPPEN BUT WHY THEY HAD TO!
I was being catched up on a greedy poisoned snake nast, but I didan't realize that... Still my heart didan't become hard  and I am happy that I can say:I STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE, AND ALL THAT I KNOW IS THAT NOTHING I KNOW...THAT IS GOOD,BECAUSE MORE AND MORE I WANNA LEARN WITH LIFE. LIFE,so misterious and confuse and still THE GREATEST UNIVERSITY OF THE WHOLE WORLD.

>>A tocha olimpica passando pelo RJ hoje...TO CAGANDO PRA ISSO! como se isso fosse fazer alguma diferenca ou trazer lago de melhor pra gente...

THE RASMUS...

Eu conheci o THE RASMUS pela primeira vez em 2001, po! ate ai tudo bem que claro que uma banda Finlandesa jamais faria sucesso nessa cucaracha's land! Conheci a banda atraves da revista SHOW BIZZ.Nao dei muita atencao mas baixei algumas musicas deles no meu PC.Uma vez meu ex com toda sua pedancia e arrogancia de primeiro mundo me disse que no Brasil NAO HA MERCADO CONSUMIDOR para o que e novidade nos paises de primeiro mundo, Ta explicado porque tudo aqui chega atrasado.Quando chega ja ta mais do que manjado la fora.
Quando eu estava na Holanda a musica " IN THE SHADOWS" ESTAVA NO TOPO DAS PARADAS  e eu amava a musica!!! tanto que ate o mesmo X gravando uns cds pra mim granvou essa musica em um deles. Hoje preguicosa com o friozinho assistindo Tv e virada depois de ter ido a festa e trabalhado por 12 horas seguidas eis que mudo de canal MTV  e la estava....

       I've been watching, I've been waiting
       In the shadows for my time
       I've been searching, I've been living
       For tomorrows all my life

Ja li a biografia deles quando eu estava la mesmo e vi a data dos shows, tocaram em un festivalno dia 30 de maio que sempre tive o sonho de ir: o PINKPOP ou PINKSTEREN NA Holanda. EU ESCREVI NO GUEST BOOK DO SITE DA BANDA: VEM CA GALERA? QUANDO E QUE VOCES IRAO APARECER NO BRASIL???!!!! Bom se nem a Madonna na sua world tour incluiu o Brasil o THE RASMUS definitivamente tambem nao iria. E como diria ironicamente nosso falecido RENATO RUSSO :
                                            "O BRASIL E O PAIS DO FUTURO"

                                               Futuro bem distante, creio eu....

 THE BAND I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ENGLISH VERSION:

>> the Olimpic fire torch crossing the city of Rio de Janeiro today.. I don't give a damm shit for that.. as if this would make any difference or make anything better for us!!

THE RASMUS...

I met THE RASMUS for the first time in 2001. Fine, but of course that a band from Finland would never be such a success in this "CUCARACHA'S LAND" ! I met the band through a magazine called SHOW BIZZ. I didan't give too much attention at that time, but I downloaded some songs of them on my PC. Once my x-boyfriend with all his first world arrogance towards me said that in Brasil there are not enough profits for the new things that comesfrom the first world. It is the reason why everything gets here pretty late and when it gets here it is already old abroad.

When I was in Holland the song: "IN THE SHADOWS" was on the top parades and I loved the song so much that I asked him to include the song in one of the cds he recorded for me, Today lazy on a cold weather, watching Tv and asleep after a whole night party and had been working for 12 hours straight I sudenly change the channel to MTV BRASIL and there they were:

            I've been watching, I've been waiting
            In the shadows for my time
            I've been searching, I've been living
            For tomorrows all my life

I already read their biography when I was there and I saw the dates of the shows, they played on May 30th on a festival in Holand I always wanted to go:
PINKPOP or PINKSTEREN. I WROTE ON THE GUESTBOOK OF THE BAND'S OFFICIAL SITE: AND SO WHAT FELLOWS? WHEN ARE YOU COMING TO BRASIL???!!! Well, if not even Madonna included Brasil on her WORLD TOUR, THE RASMUS wouldn't definatelly do it either. And as ironically said RENATO RUSSO (VOCALS OF LEGIAL URBANA,A BRAZILIAN ROCK BAND WHO DIED IN 1996):
            "BRASIL IS THE COUNTRY OF THE FUTURE"

                                                         Long distant future I believe....

E ROLOU A FESTA...

Se o dia de ontem nao tivesse sido tao ruim, nao teris sido tao bom!ahaha
Nao entendeu ne? Vou explicar...

Fui pra festa do tomate... a tal FESTA DO TOMATE para quem nao sabe acontece todos os anos no mes de junho na cidade de PATI DO ALFERES, no estado do Rio de Janeiro, e uma cidade serrana e quando chagamos a temperatura era de 9 graus centigrados. O show.. IVETE "SAPATA" SANGALO. Eu nao merecia e confesso nao sou fan de Axe Music mas eu fui mesmo assim.

Na ida pra festa,se nao fosse um puta engarrafamento, estariamos la em mais ou menos 3 horas , mas levamos 5 horas pra chegar... parecia que o estado do Rio de janeiro TODO E EM PESO resolveu ir pra festa... mas tudo bem, isso nao afetou meu bom humor, eu estava tao bem humorada que no meio do engarrafamento e de saco cheio, eu saia da van e ficava dando voltinhas entre os carros no meio da estrada escura so iluminada pelos farois  e ah... sim...o tedio me fez cair na tentaçao de filar uns cigarros tambem. Eu de saia curta, meia calça arrastao , bota, blusa que caia nos meus ombros e cachecol, quando saia da van era um motivinho de GRACINHA entre os cariocas que sentem um imenso prazer em fazer gozaçoes. mas claro que apesar de ter ouvido: COLEGA , VOU TE COMER NO MATO; COLEGA,VC VAI SENTIR FRIO EM! OH "LOIRINHA" VEM CA QUE EU TE QUERO MUITO! VAGABUNDA! PUTA! TA RODANDO BOLSINHA NA ESTRADA! ai ai... mas e claro que isso tambem nao afetou meu bom humor.. eu no meio dos meus amigos marmanjos e minha irma escutando tais barbaridades so ria e ria...daquele monte de caipiras fluminenses me xingando...
E pasmem!! eu nao estava nem bebada!! Depois de todo perrengue...Finalmente chegamos... eu gostei... comi um monte de besteira que eu geralmente nao como por aqui e o frio?? eu nem senti!!!
Claro que os 9 graus de Pati nem se comparam com os 9 graus que faziam quando cheguei em Amsterdam...o pessoal me zoando: IH VC JA ESTA IMUNE AO FRIO! Eu disse que quem tem fogo no rabo nao sente frio hahah

Fogo por fogo eu me considero uma das mulheres menos foguentas das que deparei na festa...EU no meio de 3 casais, segurei uma vela de 7 dias daquelas bem chamativas,coloridas,enfeitadas! NINGUEM MERECE!!o pior e quando eles resolviam todos beijar na boca, eu virava a cara e olhava pro lado pra ao menos pra quem tivesse de longe nao notasse a minha total falta de jeito pra lidar com isso... MAS ISSO TAMBEM NAO ABALOU MEU BOM HUMOR.
A Taty , namorada do Daniel, me puxa pelo braço no meio da festa... AH NAO... VOCE TEM QUE BEIJAR NA BOCA HOJE!!! E eu que nao sou muito fan das ficadas de uma noite e nada mais  de cantadinhas baratas do tipo: MINA, VC E IRAQUIANA??(eu estava parecendo uma com aquela roupa???)PO VEM CA PRA GENTE SE CONHECER ENTAO!!levei na brincadeira dizendo: Esse lugar cheira a fralda Pampers e hypoglos,amiga.. eu gosto de homem nao de moleque...
O show finalmente- e graças a Deus- acaba e uma banda toca Legiao Urbana... e eu brincando.. TATY TA SENTINDO O CHEIRINHO DE HIPOGLOS NAO?? e uma criatura, bonitinha, diga-se de passagem... se aproxima de mim... e pasmem, nao fedia a talco de nenem nao... SERA QUE POSSO FALAR COM VOCE? ahah eu sou mestra na arte de respostas imediatas: MAS VOCE JA NAO ESTA FALANDO??? e o professor de geografia tinha uma cantada bem mais encantadora: NO MOMENTO A UNICA GEOGRAFIA QUE ME INTERESSA E A SUA! ui essa deu ate frio na espinha.. mas PAREM.. antes que pensem besteira... So ficou na cantada e no beijinho.. Cheguei em casa as 11 da manha de hoje... DIA DOS NAMORADOS...foi um dia de dormir, beijar muito o Ian (meu "sobrinho" de 4 meses) e vir trabalhar vendo flores e casais circulando pelas ruas...ah quem sabe no ano que vem?? ME DOU POR SATISFEITA DE AO MENOS NO DIA MUNDIAL DOS NAMORADOS DESTE ANO-14 DE FEVEREIRO- NAO TER PASSADO EM BRANCO.

P.S>>>>>>Fica a promessa de postar aqui as fotos que tiramos na festa... da maquina da Patricia(se o Leo me mandar essas fotos mesmo) e do celular do meu cunhado Sergio Bz(se o constante mal humor dele tiver a boa vontade de me enviar as fotos por e-mail).

ENGLISH VERSION:

AND THE PARTY STARTED...

IF YESTERDAY WAS NOT SO BAD, IT WOULDN'T BE SO NICE! AHAAH

DIDAN'T GET IT,RIGHT? I WILL EXPLAIN IT...

I went to a TOMATOES PARTY.. TOMATOES PARTY for the ones who never heard about it, it's a kind of festival that happens every year in the month june in the city of PATI DO ALFERES in Rio de Janeiro state. It is an small city in the mountains and when we got there the temperature was about 9 degrees celcius. The show was IVETE SANGALO (BRAZILIAN SINGER). I didan't deserve that because it is actually not my kind of music but I did it anyway.

On the way to the party if it was not for a damm big traffic jam, we would be there in 3 hours, but we took 5 to get there...It seams that the whole state os Rio de Janeiro decided to go... but that's fine, it didan't affect my good mood, I was in a so good mood, that in the middle of the traffic jam and very bored, I went our of the van and walked in between the cars in the middle of the dark road just lighted by the headlight of the cars and oh yes...bored the way I was I got the temptation to smoke some cigarrets. Me, in short skirt,panties, long boots a blouse falling down on my shoulder and a scarf on my neck was a reason for CARIOCAS (WHO FEELS ORGASM WHILE MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE) to make some stupid jokes about me. But after leasonning such things like: Hey fellow, I am gonna fuck you in the middle of the grass!HEY "BLONDIE"I WANT YOU SO BADLY! HOOKER,BITCH, ARE YOU A PROSTITUTE OF THE ROAD? oh well.. of course that these things also didan't affect my good mood.. me in the middle of my male friends and my sister my only reaction was laughing a lot of all these RIO STATE'S CRACKERS swearing at me...
And believe me.. I was not even drunk!!
After all the obstacles to get there.. we finally did!... and I liked it... I ate lots of junkie that I usually don't. and the cold??Of course that 9 degrees celcius in Pati do Alferes it is far from being compared to the 9 degrees of Amsterdam... my friends making fun of me... YOU GOT USED TO THE COLD ALREADY! I said: It is not a matter of getting used but having a fire inside of me!!!ahahahaha ;)

But when it comes to having a  "fire inside" I guess I consider myself the less "warm" woman compared to the ones I saw at the party... ME, alone in the middle of 3 couples.. NOBODY DESERVES THAT! and the worst thing was when all them started to kiss and holding, I just turned to the other side wishing that no one around could realize my shyness... BUT OF COURSE THAT THIS WAS ALSO NOT A REASON TO AFFECT MY GOOD MOOD.

Taty, Daniel's girlfriend, took me by the arms and in the middle of the party and say:
OH NO...YOU HAVE TO KISS SOMEONE TODAY!! and me, who is not very fond of ONE NIGHT STANDINGS and such bowshits as I heard like: SWEETY, ARE YOU IRAQUIAN?? COME HERE ÇAUSE I NEED TO KNOW YOU!! (was I looking as an iraquian on  that clothes???) I just took it as a joke saying: This place smells like pumpers and hipoglos (baby's cream), dear... I like MEN not BOYS...
The show was finally-and thank God- OVER! A cover band started playing LEGIAO URBANA (80'S BRAZILIAN ROCK BAND) and me playing, singing and saying... TATY AREN'T YOU FEELLING PUMPERS AND HIPOGLOS SMELL IN HERE?
When I just said that,a cute and nice criature... get closer me (and believe me it was far from pumpers smelling) saying: MAY I TALK TO YOU FOR A MINUTE? and me a master in quick answers said: AREN'T YOU, ALREADY??? and the geography teacher had no bowshits to say but enchanted words as:"THE ONLY GEOGRAPHY THAT INTERSTS ME AT THE MOMENT IS THE GEOGRAPHY OF YOUR BODY"! waw!! that one was deep.. BUT STOP IT! before you think something I better warn you that nothing happenned but some come-ons and little kisses...

I got home at 11 AM.. today.. VALENTINE'S DAY IN BRASIL...was a day of sleepping, kiss my 4 months old"nephew",Yan and see flowers and couples all over... Well... who knows next year??I am already satisfied that at least on THE REAL WORLD VALENTINE'S DAY-FABRUARY 14TH-I HAD A BOYFRIEND TO KISS AND HOLD.

P.S>>>>>>I promisse you to post the pictures taken during the party... from Patricia's camera (if Leo, her bf, really send me them as promissed) and from my sister's boyfriend, (Sergio Bz's) cell phone( if he and his bad forever and ever bad mood allows him  send it to my e-mail).

Saindo da feira de livros...

Escutei uma voz atras de mim: E ai gostosa!!- essa voz nao me e estranha!!
Quando viro, e olho quem estava la? Patrick: Um cara que eu adorava conversar quando estava no segundo grau.. quem diria!!! Naquela epoca a criatura so andava rasgada! de tennis velho, cabelo despenteado, doidao e agora... PASMEM!!!de terninho indo pra faculdade!!!

Conversamos e ambos estavamos com pressa, NORMAL...
- Patrick!!! Meu companheiro de "baseados" no segundo grau!!!!
- Eh Carol... ate hoje ahahahahhaa....- Dava pra notar pela cara dele ne??!!
- Eu nao...to devagar ate parei com os cigarros!!!
- Nossa vc era a maior sugadora, nao deixava nada pra gente...
- Ah la se vao quase 5 anos ne!! as coisas mudam.

Foi bom reve-lo, principlamente porque todo mundo na escola achava que ele fosse se tornar um viciado, mendigo ou maluco porque ele sempre chegava na aula com sono e olhos vermelhos.Eu sempre gostei dele, ele era muito inteligente e uma otima companhia nos shows de rock e nas festas no segundo grau, E bom se surpreender de vez em quando...

AS COISAS LINDAS QUE MEUS OLHOS NAO CONSEGUEM VER...

Parada esperando o sinal fechar... olho para o teatro municipal!! como ele estava lindo!!! todo iluminado!! a burra ignorante aqui nem sabia qual o evento ocorreria la.. fiquei pensando e olhando aqueles onibus barulhentos na Av. Rio Branco e pensei... que noite bonita!! Quanta coisa bonita a minha volta que essa maldita depressao nao me permite ver!!
Semana passada recomecei com as pilulazinhas magicas.. tomei um esporro do medico!! VOCE NAO ESTA EM CONDIÇOES E PARAR AINDA!!

Me lembra um desses dias assistindo ao seriado EVERWOOD. Adoro a sensibilidade como os temas sao abordados nesse seriado... A medica queria suspender a medicaçao dela e ela disse.. Nao por favor. nao agora! E vi uma cena de quando duas pessoas estao em momentos distintos de suas vidas e TEM QUE SEPARAR E NAO HA MAIS COMO FICAREM JUNTAS. Que belo ator! Eu podia sentir a dor dele... eu pude ate me emocionar quando ouvi ao final..

"Alguns coraçoes sao endurecidos pela dor, e se tornam fortes, porem insensiveis; outros sao sensiveis e lindos como um cristal e mesmo quebrados ainda sim permanecem lindos.."

P.S>> EUREKA!!!! ACHEI O LIVRO BETTY BLUE POR 5 REAIS!!! como e bom ser amiga do vendedor de livros ahahaha :D

ENGLISH VERSION

Leaving the book market...
 
I hear a voice behind me saying: - hey cute!!- oh, oh I know this voice!
When I turn around, who was there? Patrick! A very nice guy I loved to talk with in High School! I wonder how he looks like now!!! On that time the guy used to walk around in torn clothes, old and dirty tennis shoes, bad hair, always high and now...wearing a suit going to university!!!

We talked a little bit because both were on a hurry... pretty normal.
- Patrick!!! my "smoking weed" fellow!!
-Eh Carol I do it untill nowadays!!ahaha- Well I could realize that just by looking at him!
-Oh not me , not anymore I even quited smoking!
- Yeah? waw you were the best weed sucker!ahaha didan't even let something left for us!!!
- Well there goes 5 years already.. things change!!

It was nice to see him again, specially because everyone of our school and also the teachers thought that he would turn into a retard begger, hooked on drugs because he always used to get at school in red eyes and sleeping during classes. I always liked this guy! He was a great company on rock concerts and parties during high school... It is good getting surprised sometimes!!

THE BEAUTIFULL THINGS MY EYES JUST CANNOT SEE...

Stuck waitting for the red lights to cross the street.. I saw the theater, how it was beautifull!!! covered by colloured lights. I am so stupid I didan't even know what was the event on the theather that day! I was thinking and looking at that noisy buses and cars crossing Rio Branco avenue.. what a beautifull full moon night! How many beautifull things around me that this damm depression don't allow me to see!!
Last week I reestarted with the magical pills... the doctor was pretty angry at me:YOU HAVE NO CONDITIONS TO STOP IT YET!

It makes me remember one of these few lazy days watching EVERWOOD on TV.I love the sensibility of this tv serial.

The doctor wanted to quit with the girls medication and she said: oh please not yet!
I also saw an scene when two people are in totally apart moments of their lives, and although they love each other, they can't stay together anymore. WHAT A NICE ACTOR (unfortunatelly I don't know his name) I could even feel the pain of the character, and by the end crying when I heard:

"Some hearts get harder because of pain; they become strong but also insesitive; others are sensitive and so beautifull as a crystal glass that even broken, they're still beautifull"

P.S>>EUREKA!!! I FINALLY FOUND THE BOOK "BETTY BLUE" FOR R$5,00(about 1.50 dollars or euros!!!) I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SO GOOD BECOME A FRIEND OF A BOOK SELLER!!! :D