CoNfUsÃo!!!!!!!

MEU FIM DE ANO.COMO ESTA SENDO E O QUE AINDA NAO FOI...

Vou resumir porque estou usando internet de um local que NO MOMENTO nao quero falar...

O NATAL:

Qe engraçado este natal MEU BABTJE veio pro Rio de Janeiro, me chega num vo da Cotnental Arines que no dia anterior deveria chegar as 13:00 porem chegou as 16:00, Que bom que neste dia o voo somente teve um atraso de 5 minutinhos.

E la se foi o natal, BABTE conhece papai, mama, irma, a cachorrada e todos os meus amigos loucos que fizeram graça dele o tempo todo e e tonta a bessa com o vinho que ele trouxe so falava besteira,por fim, caio de sono nos braços de morfeu, EU DISSE NO DE MORFEU NAO NO DELE, AINDA....

O fim do ano esta sendo maravilhoso, e que se dane o que pensam de mim pelas ruas de Copa, sou somente mais uma garota tentando ser feliz, tomando Gin e tonica, sagria epanhola, fazendo a farra em Pubs Irlandeses, ficando chapada, dançando sem musica, beijando MUUUUIIIITOOO!!!!!!! Farei um resumo do que foi 2004 com os fatos mais marcantes, as estorias mais hilarias, as frases escrotas, as frases marcantes... FAREI SIM, porque este foi um ano muito estranho , muuuuuiiiito estranho, porem, um  ano que e ensinou taaaannntas coisas, que me ensinou que e preciso saber viver , que e preciso dizer a CERTAS PESSOAS.. NAO EU NAO SOU A CAROLINA QUE VCS DSSERAM QUE EU ERA, NAO EU NAO SOU DEPEDENTE NEM EMOCIONALMENTE DEPENDENTE DE NINGUEM E DIZER MAIS : NAO ESPERE PELO SEU FUTURO E NAO PENSE MUITO NELE, VIVA O AGORA E FAÇA O MELHOR DO SEU AGORA PORQUE CERTAMNETE VC COLHERA BONS FRUTOS DE TUDO ISSO..E ISSO!!! Quero dizer mais , mas ao lado de quem estou agora nao posso perder um segundo sequer, nao posso perder um segundo se este segundo me traz FELICIDADE!

Meus queridos leitores que sao poucos, porem especiais. volterei sm la pro dia primeiro de janero pra contar umas poucas boas e azer com que vc deem bastante risadas e parem pra refletir.

Grande beijo... FEIZ 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nina

ENGLISH VERSION:

THE END OF THIS YEAR..HOW IS IT GOING AND WHAT DID NOT HAPPEN  YET...

I am gonna be fast because I am using internet from a place I don´t wanna talk about right now...

THE CHRISTMAS:

Very funny actually, a kind of christmas I never had before. My Babtje came to Rio de Janeiro on a Continental Airlines flight, a flight that got in Rio 3 hours late the day before. Too good that this day it got just 5 minutes late.

And there it goes christmas, Babtje met dad, mom, sister, the dogs and all my crazy drunk friends making fun all the time  and me very dizzle because of the wine he brought to us, saying lots of bowshit all the time, at last, I felt on Morfeu´s arms (This is a dialect quote that means you sleep deeply), I FELT AT MORFEU´S ARMS NOT HIS, YET...

The end of this year has been wonderfull, Fuck off what they say about me through the streets of Copacabana, I am just another girl trying to be happy, taking Gin and Tonica,spanish sangria and making a real mess at irish pubs, getting high and drunk, dancing withouth music, kissing a loooootttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I a gonna make a resume of what was 2004 with the more important facts, the most hilarious stories, the most stupid quotes and the more important ones too...YES I AM GONNA DO IT, because that was really and strange year, veeeeeryy strange, although a year that teached me so many things, it teached me how to live, that it is really needed to say to SOME PEOPLE: NO I AM NOT THE CAROLINA THAT YOU SAID I WAS, I AM NOT DEPENDENT, NEITHER EMOCIONALLY DEPENDENT OF ANYONE AND SAY MORE:DO NOT WAIT FOR YOUR FUTURE THAT HARD AND DO NOT THINK TOO MUCH ABOUT IT, LIVE AND MAKE YOUR BEST NOW, BECAUSE CERTAINLLY YOU GONNA SEE THAT FURTHER,IN THE FUTURE..THAT IS IT!!! I WANNA SAY MORE, but I am at
someone´s side, someone it is not worth replace for an stupid computer someone I cannot waste one second away, if this second brings me HAPPINESS!!

My dear readers, that are not so many, altough special ones, I am gonna be back by the begginning of january to tell you some things and make you guys laugh and stop to think.

great kiss, HAPPY 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nina

Entre a razao e emoçao...

Entre ambas decidi entrar em um meio termo, espero que de certo.

To love somebody secretly, and never touch
To love somebody honestly, and allways trust
To love somebody tenderly, the tender touch
It's not enough
It's not enough

Love hurts you sometimes
It's not so easy to find, no
Searchin' everywhere
You turn and swear
It's always been there (VAN HALEN)

VOU ASSUMIR MAS ALGUNS JA SABEM UM DIA ME DISSERAM: BRASILANDESA UMA VEZ, BRASILANDESA PRA SEMPRE!
VCS ENTENDERAM...EU SEI QUE SIM...

Posso dizer que procurei por isso, posso dizer que fora UMA coinscidencia tremenda causada pelas circumstancias com que eu o encontrei, mas daqui a seis dias havera um ultimato,uma ultima decisao meio que ja tomada antes, eu estou nervosa, apreenssiva...e apos a sessao de terapia de ontem quando escutei um: SE VC PENSA ASSIM, E ASSIM QUE SERA! VEJO QUE NAO TENHO MAIS RAZOES PARA PENSAR QUE NAO PODE DAR CERTO, E SE NAO DER CERTO, ASSIM SEJA,mas que seja eterno o quanto dure porque Deus, depois do perrengue danado que eu passei esse ano, POR FAVOR! Eu mereço ser feliz e vou acreditar nisso enquanto eu viver.

DEZEMBRO...

A long december and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven’
Now the days go by so fast
And it’s one more day up in RIO  DE JANEIRO
And it’s one more night in THE NETHERLANDS
If you think that I could be forgiven...i wish you would (COUNTING CROWS)

Final de ano no Rio de Janeiro e assim...Aquele calor insuportavel que consegue derreter ate o asfalto, as escolas e faculdades meio paradas por conta das ferias de verao, o povo que ficou pra prova final desesperado estudando dentro do onibus e do metro, aquele monte de gringo perdido na rua, as praias lotadesimas em plena segunda feira, as pessoas lotando os shoppings e as ruas onde ha centro comercial com suas sacolas de presentes, a rua Uruguaiana e da Alfandega lotadas de pessoas de todos os lugares  da cidade procurando os melhores preços... tambem..os barzinhos as boites  de centro do Rio,lotados de gente fazendo festinhas de fim de ano das empresas, e eu entrei na dança das despedidas tambem, porque ninguem e de ferro!!

E PORQUE NINGUEM E DE FERRO... EU TINHA ESQUECIDO O QUE E VIVER!! MAS POR UMA NOITE EU RESSUSCITEI!!!

Suei em bicas, dancei como uma louca, fui paquerada mesmo!!! Esfolei meus lindos pezinhos em uma sandalia de salto alto e QUE SALTO!! Eu houvera me esquecido como era bom fazer essas coisas! Eu havia me esquecido de como era bom (embora e claro que eu nao goste) levar AQUELA passada de mao na bunda, escutar piadinhas no ouvido, ficar completamente molahada em uma pista de dança, encher a cara,Aaturar os baladeiros carinhas cariocas futeis, falar besteira, zuar e ser zuada, DANÇAR,DANÇAR E DANÇAR MAIS AINDA!!! Eu estava tao feliz, tao sorridente,tao dançante que a minha alegria se espalhou pelo ambiente, acho que o DJ adivinhou exatamente o que eu queria ouvir e colocou todas as minhas favoritas. Nem preciso dizer que cheguei em casa morta e desmaiei em uma noite quente apos um bom banho gelado!!!

ENGLISH VERSION:

INBETWEEN THE REASON AND THE EMOTION:

Inbetween both I am gonna stay in the middle, I hope it works right.

To love somebody secretly, and never touch
To love somebody honestly, and allways trust
To love somebody tenderly, the tender touch
It's not enough
It's not enough

Love hurts you sometimes
It's not so easy to find, no
Searchin' everywhere
You turn and swear
It's always been there (VAN HALEN)

I WILL BROADCAST IT, BUT SOME OF YOU ALREADY KNOW ABOUT IT. ONE DAY SOMEONE TOLD ME: BRASILANDESA ONCE, BRASILANDESA FOREVER! (BRASILANDESA>> brazilian girls in love with dutch guys).

DID YOU GUYS GET IT RIGHT? I THINK SO...

I could say I had expected for that, I could say it was pure coincidence caused by the circumstances that joined us, but in six days, there will be a decision, probably a decision already taken before, I am nervous, worried...and after my last therapy session of the year yesterday, when I heard:IF YOU THINK THIS WAY, THEN IT WILL BE THIS WAY! I REALLY FEEL THAT THERE ARE NO MORE REASONS TO THINK THAT IT'S NOT GONNA WORK, AND EVEN IF IT DOESN'T WORK LET IT BE! as soon as it can be everlasting for the time we feel good in it, because GOD! After all the difficult times I had this year, come one! I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!! and I will believe in that, from now on, as soon as I live.

DECEMBER...

A long december and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing that you said as you were leaven’
Now the days go by so fast
And it’s one more day up in Rio de Janeiro
And it’s one more night in The Netherlands
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would (COUNTING CROWS)

The end of the year enviromment in RIO CITY is like this: That umberable heat that besides melting us, also  melt the asfalt on the streets, the school and universities witha low activity because of summer vacations, the students who were flunked and are on a dependency final test desperate studying on the buses and subway trains and stations, that bunch of gringos lost on the streets, the crowded beaches on a monday morning, people full filling the shopping malls and streets with their packages and bags full of gifts, Uruguaiana and Alfandega street crowded of people from everywhere in the city looking for the best prices...ALSO...the bars and the dance clubs of downtown full of people organizing farewells parties of the companies. I also went into "the farewell thing" because I am a human being and I didan't resist to it!

AND JUST BECAUSE I AM NOT MADE OF IRON...I HAD FORGOTTEN WHAT LIFE WAS, BUT LAST NIGHT I RESUSCITATED!!!

I had sweat a lot, danced as a crazy!!! I totally demaged my beautifull feet on a high hills sandal and that was what I call a REAL HIGH HILL!!
I had forgotten how it feels good to do these things sometimes! I had forgotten how good it feels (although I am not very fond of that) that evil hidden hand pinching my butt, that nasty words on my ears comming from that stupid, frivolous party carioca guys, how good it is getting totally wet on a dance floor, drink as hell, say lots of bowshits, make fun of people and laugh when they make fun of me. DANCE , DANCE, DANCE AND DANCE EVEN MORE!!! I was so damm happy, smilling that my happiness was spread all over the place. I think the DJ knew exactally what I wanted to hear and had put on, all my favorite songs. I don't even need to say I got home almost dead and I just fainted on a warm night after a cold shower!!!

NA LOJA DE SAPATOS, SEMANA PASSADA TENTANDO ESCOLHER UM PRESENTE PRA MINHA MAE, MORRI DE RIR...

Duas coreanas ou chinesas nao sei..ahaha comedia elas falavam rapidinho:ling ling ling ling lui... a outra respondia...lung ling lang lui?? e a vendedora muuuuiiiito P da vida... a mulher experiemntou mais de 10 pares de sapato completamente diferentes e so levou UM!! okok so sei que a vendedora tava muito P da vida... eu acho que essas meninas nao se vestem da maneira como estavam na China ou na Coreia. Ah mas esqueci de dizer que foram as misses Indonesia que me incomodavam nao elas. ehehe antes de ontem conversei com uma amiga de uma amiga que passou A LUA DE MEL na Indonesia ...eu contei pra ela, afinal essa dai ja nao me ve ha um ano...NAO ACREDITO CAROLINA...INDONESIA???????????? MAS SO TEM PUTA POR LA!!! HEY. Prestem atençao!!!!!!Nao fui eu quem disse isso, foi ela!! Eu nao concordei com ela, MAS AQUELE VENENINHO FEMININO, E'AQUELE MESMO, HEY GIRLS NAO ME DIGAM QUE VCS NAO CONHECEM?? EU SEI QUE VCS CONHECEM BEM. Bom esse veneninho bem que gostaria de concordar com ela!!!  E mas eu nao ou RACISTA sou REALISTA. Vcs estenderam o que eu disse nao e?

AHAHA... FALANDO EM ASIATICAS, TEM UMA QUE NAO SE MANCA E NAO LARGA DO PE DO MEU QUERIDINHO!!!

Sera que elas serao meu carma pra sempre?????????????????????? SEM CHANCE!!!Eu vou mostrar pra elas a força de uma mulher maravilha latina!  E MELHOR AINDA brasileira!

Lembrei de uma frase dita pelo meu ex namorado Fernando, ele foi meu primeiro namorado serio.

"Todo o homem que te amar jamais te esquecerá" Devo levar isso a serio? Afinal, ele me disse isso quando eu estava MUUUUUIIIIITO DOWN assim que voltei da Holanda e ele veio me consolar. Faz 3 anos que eu e ele nos separamos. Bom vindo de uma homem como ele eu poderia ATE levar a serio. MAS NAO TANTO HIHIH :)

APELO:
 Sr. Buda, Allah OU O QUE QUER QUE SEJA...sera que vcs poderiam pedir  gentilmente a suas devotas que parassem de EMPACAR a minha vida amorosa????

 EU,ME!!!!                     ELAS,THEM!!

ENGLISH VERSION:

ON THE SHOES STORE,LAST WEEK BUYING A CHRISTMANS PRESENT FOR MY MOTHER... I JUST HAD TO LAUGH...
 

Two chinese, corean girls, I don't know for sure...speaking very fast: ling ling lung, and the other one replied: lung ling lang lung!! and the seller very very pissed...the girl tryed more than 15 pairs of shoes completally different one to the other, and took just ONE!!! I guess these girls do not get dressed the way they were in China or Corea.
Oh I forgot to say  it was the misses Indonesia that used to bother me, not them. ehehehe and about them I have to say: Two days ago I talked to the firned of a friend of mine who spent her honey moon in Indonesia...I had to tell her... besides she doesn't see me for a year long, I think... I CAN'T BELIEVE IT CAROL...INDONESIA????????????? BUT THERE ARE ONLY HOOKERS THERE!!! HEY PEOPLE, PAY ATTENTION!! It was not me who said that, it was HER !! I did not agree on her, BUT YOU KNOW GIRLS, THAT LITTLE FEMALE GOSSIP POISON THAT INSIST IN FOLLOWING US, I KNOW YOU GIRLS KNOW IT VERY WELL. THE FACT IS THAT "LITTLE POISON" was really feelling like agree on her!! But I am not RACIST I am just REALISTIC. YOU GOT WHAT I MEANT RIGHT???

AHAHAH TALKING ABOUT ASIAN GIRLS, THERE IS ONE OF THEM WHO JUST CAN'T TAKE HER ACTS TOGETHER AND DO NOT GET OUT OF MY BABY'S BACK!!!!

Will them be a karma for me forever????????? NO WAY!!! I will show them the power of latin wonder woman!! and  BETTER : A BRASILIAN  WOMAN!!

It just came on my mind one thing said by my ex-bf, Fernando:

"Every man who falls in love with you, will never ever forget you"

Should I take this seriously??? Besides, he said that when I was down in the dumps just after comming back from Netherlands and he came to comfort me. We fell apart 3 years ago. Well this sentence comming from a man as Fernando I think I can EVEN take seriouslly, BUT NOT SO MUCH I THINK IHIHIH ;)

I BEG....
Mr. Buda, Alah, OR WHOEVER...Can you please kindly ask your followers to stop bothering my love life???!!